So, I feel hurt and just plain old down in the dumps today. Is that even a regular saying anymore? The day started off unexpected, for I had a plan to go into the city with an old friend. Yet now I sit here, alone, and wonder what that girl is exactly thinking and going through at this moment.
The story goes as follows: I have a friend, let's call her Geraldine. Now, Geraldine came here from a foreign country. She does not live with her parents, yet lives with her Aunt, and her husband, accompanied by her other cousins, who are in the same situation as she is in. They have come to America to study and go to college, to basically start a different life. She has far less privileges than your average American teenager, for I guess she is trying to prove herself, to both her parents, as well as her Aunt, and even herself.
What I don't understand is: when she is faced with a problem in which she wishes to do something for herself, in other words, to have some freedom, why doesn't she fight for it? Geraldine, for lack of better words, "loves" to work. Schoolwork, community service, church labor, about any work that a teenager could partake in. Hell, she would get a job, that is, if she could.
She never has time for herself. Absolutely never, ever. Don't even ask her! This, my friends, is my best bud. My "BFFL." Tell me now, do you see something wrong with this?
She needs help, preferably some sort of therapeutic relaxation from the everyday life of a high school junior. She also needs to be able to sense that freedom and a break is necessary to actually live. You are a teenager, goddamn it. Please just realize this, for the sake of those who actually wish to see you every once in a while. You know, to check if you're alive or not...
It just hit me that I am currently obsessed with the so-called pop phenomenon Bruno Mars. If anyone has heard of this guy, please just look him up. Far beyond your average pop garbage these days, and an actual down-to-earth, talented kid. Not to mention quite adorable.
I've just been living on the edge the past few months since school has started. You ever feel like everything you live for is just focused on this one single thing and there's nothing you can do but fight for it? No compromising, no loopholes in that contract called life. Just live and make the best of what you are given.
Currently reading: Brave New World. By Aldous Huxley. Damn good book, with loads of 1) insight and 2) allusions. My two favorite things!
If I had gone to the city: ramen would be the first thing I would have eaten. Simply scrumptious, a Japanese delight, obviously involving noodles and a spicy broth. Plus many other appetizing things...
Have a wonderful night.
